nickstuff-eugene:
There’s nowhere you can go to get a break from life. It sucks. I just realized that. It’s just not possible. There is absolutely no way you can just take a load off for a year or so without having to worry about anything.
Vacations are bullshit. You can’t have a vacation without having to worry about money and what you’re going to do to catch up when you get back. Drugs are dumb. You can’t stay drunk and high all the time, and it seriously messes you up eventually.
I mean, there’s got to be some way you can just put everything aside for a long period of time and come back with a fresh start, right? How could there not be?
When I start feeling really overwhelmed and too busy I wish I could just stop for a while. When I was in school I used to keep myself awake stressing about how little sleep I was going to get, but I stopped doing that because I realized that even if I never fell asleep that night, I would get to lay there for x amount of hours doing absolutely nothing. This fact was very comforting to me, and made me stop worrying, and eventually, of course, I would actually fall asleep.
But, man, just lying in bed on your back staring at the ceiling can be really great. About a week ago I spent twenty minutes just watching some flecks of dust floating around in a sunbeam, and it was the highlight of my goddamn day.
Also, the thing is, to be truly free to travel about taking vacations wherever you want for however long you want, you have to have money, but to have that much money, you have to have a steady job, and steady jobs prevent you from spontaneously traveling about wherever you feel. It’s a really disappointing fact of adulthood.
All in all, I recommend lying in bed with your pillow over your head for as much time as you’ve got.